Recently, I've been doing a lot of sitting around. No, not by choice but simply because of this little life I've been growing inside of me for over 40 weeks now.
Anyway, Brian and I have also had lots of time to sit together and talk. However, this is not a new aspect of our life together. Even when I'm not prego or nursing, we have always seemed to prioritize our connection even in simple ways. Often in the spring and summer, once the kids are tucked into bed, we will take a cup of tea out to the porch swing, even for just 20 minutes and sit together. Sometimes we talk. Sometimes we just sit.
Anyone who frequents my house knows that we are not relaxing together because everything is in order inside our house. In other words, for some reason (probably because we are best friends and love to be together!....and, uh, maybe a smidge of exhaustion and, at times, laziness :- ) we have usually prioritized our connection when the kiddos are not in the picture at the moment. It could be really easy in these years of raising little kids to take every spare minute and tidy this or clean that or tackle this overdue project, etc. I'm realizing that time with my hubby is WAY more important to the health and welfare of our family. And I'm also coming to terms with the fact that, when the kids are older, I can begin to prioritize the house more without compromising my connection with Brian.
It's really the grace of God that I can sit in the midst of a messy living room and focus on a conversation with Brian. Now, truth be told, I have not always been this way. Nor is my life void of moments where if the table doesn't get uncovered from junk, I feel as though I could rip my hair out! It's all part of the process of learning and growing. But at the end of the day, I'm so grateful that I can honestly say "I really know and love this man I'm falling asleep beside!" And I'm sure that, one day, my kids will be glad that I can say that too!
